5AM

Holy Shmoley… 5am…are you kidding!?

I walked into the 5am open mat today. Seems like 2 years into the making. Proffesor Rojas has been doing this daily for awhile and I’ve always been interested into joining the class.

But man….5am is a different animal. I’m usually on my 3rd dream by that time. My first training since the Covid recovery.

And as you can imagine, I was moving like I was a 70 year old man.

I think I got 4 rolls in…lol..it was all a blur.

It was good to see the guys again. I felt like I was away for a long time. And well, I usually am unfortunately. Always something.

Right before the session ends, Professor Rojas tells the class, today is the last day you’ll see Tony as a Purple Belt. I had a feeling it was coming. Mixed emotions really. You get attached to your belt. And you feel like you could’ve done more to represent it.

I almost feel like my best jujitsu days are behind me now. Life and my age are the biggest factor. I know what needs to be done, I just have to put in more mat time. Simple.

There’s lots of reasons and excuses, some I’m too embarrassed to write here. If you’ve been to marriage counseling, you know what I mean.

I’m still hopeful at the same time, I feel like, if I keep going, something might click, I might hit that flow that works.

Being mentally stable is just as important as physicality. Both come hand in hand.